I’m really sorry for the lack of updates, but it hasn’t been a great week for me. I ended up in the hospital (again) after a seizure, cut my head open, just when I thought I could leave that annoying disease behind me, it appears to be back again. Just gotten my driver’s license back, been seizure free for over a year. Don’t remember what happened, just woke up on the floor. So a little shaken up, but slowly getting back on my feet. I refuse to let this disease take over. x Chantal
For as long as I can remember, I’ve been an introvert person. It’s a way of dealing with things, and sometimes a way to hide myself. It’s started in school, when I realized I was a bit different: my style, my hair, I wasn’t an outgoing type. People would make fun of me, look at me different, call me names, and I started to question myself. Why can’t I just look the way I want to, and be as quiet as I want to? I started to doubt myself. Somehow people always find it hard: a girl that has an outspoken way of dressing and styling herself,who is a professional singer, who entertains people for a living, is a quiet and introvert girl in her daily life.
I have accepted myself, and know that I’m an introvert person, but am super social when it comes to my person social life or when I’m working as a vocal coach or as a singer or songwriter for other artists.
I still I have my insecurities. Last week I went into hiding. I was tired, had some really bad breakouts on my face and wasn’t comfortable in my own skin. I just needed a week to find some inner peace and battle things out. Please excuse me for being a crappy blogger, but sometimes life isn’t perfect or about Instagram edits and photoshop cannot save everything.
So for today I’ll sharing some of my insecurities and awkwardness.
I thought it would be fun to share 10 things about me that you might not know. If you are new here, you will get a glimpse into who I am and if you have been following me for a while, you can maybe learn something new. Let’s see if I surprise you!
I’ve been making music for quite some time now… I just wanted to share some of the things I’ve learned a long the way. In a way these are tips that can be useful for anybody doing something creative!
Hi everyone,just wanted to wish you all the best for 2016!
Thank you so much for visiting my blog, all the love and support since my epilepsy diagnosis has been so amazing. I’m happy to see how much my blog has grown thanks to all of you. Thank you! I hope 2016 brings us more love, health, peace, style and more of those amazing memorable moments.
Hope you all have a fabulous NYE!
Today’s blogpost is a personal story. My personal battle with an invisible illness: epilepsy.
A year ago, on a friday night, I watched some stuff on Netflix and went to bed. I woke up with my boyfriend sounding stressed out in the middle of the night. Apparently I was shaking and having some kind of an episode in my sleep. “We’re going straight to the doctor in the morning, this is scary and not good.” I agreed and was scared as hell,but managed to fall asleep. The next thing I remember is waking up to hear my boyfriend calling the doctor, asking for help. I was confused, felt sick, I couldn’t understand what happened. What the ?? I had another seizure, and before I knew it, two doctors were standing next to my bed, asking questions, checking me out and telling me I needed to go to the Emergency Room.”They already know you’re coming”..Wait.. WHAT?! Noooo, there’s no way you’re taking me to the hospital, I DON’T DO hospitals! But then I realized I had no choice. This was the day everything changed. Life changed.
It’s the end of the year. (Warning: this is a blogpost full of clichés..) Can’t believe how fast it flew by! 2014 was filled with highs and lows. I’m ready for something new, and it’s time to make some resolutions.
My New Year’s Resolutions for 2015
1. Get Healthy / After my hospital scare in october, I really feel the need to try and figure out how to live and deal with epilepsy, the medication and not being able to drive. These past few months have been filled with fear of new epileptic episodes and sleepless nights, taking all focus off work, my blog and general happiness. I want to feel like I’m in control again.
2. Food / I want to eat more healthy foods, cook more often, experiment, and eat less meat.
3. Body / Accept my body and lose a little weight if it will make me feel better. I’m a person that has always struggled with weight and use food as comfort. I’m also wondering if my epilepsy meds have to do with my weight gain.I have so many other things that make me feel good that won’t turn me in to a fat hobbit. Amazing boyfriend, making music, performing, work, my blog….
4. Work out / Need to get my lazy ass to the gym.
5. New Music / I’ve performing with a few projects, but feel the need to put new music out. Maybe start a whole new band.
6. Move / I need a change. Currently living in Tilburg, really want to move to a city more central like Utrecht, Amersfoort or Amsterdam. I have graduated in 2012, but stayed here after that. I’m ready for a whole new city to discover!
What are your resolutions for 2015?